Silent talk

Curi - bohong - khianat - mati. Kelakar betul bila semua benda recycled pada phase yang sama.
Tak faham? Baguslah.


Gravity is working against me, my dear heart.
Damien Rice dah tak lagi berguna.
Nina Simone, talking too randoms.
Kid Cudi dah tak lagi mengujakan. 

Lilly Allen, not more speak in line.

We have things in common. Luar keras, dalam hancur.

Yes, not a very good introduction.

Secara positifnya, aku terima.
Good or bad, depends on you.

I dare myself,

1) Study more
2) Sleep before 12 am
3) eat well
4) Drink 8 glass of water EVERYDAY
5) Anger management (Aku patut ambil wudhu' instead of straight punching someone on the face?)

But the result always take me down.

I move to the mirror and said to myself.

"you were born strong.
those bruises kept you alive.

do not die now.
not yet.

cry.
cry your heart out.
sleep.

tomorrow,
relive"

If you're no longer trust in me, I hope the love silently die.
So It could be the only reason why I cry.

Friend To Be

I feel warm. I feel loved. Being surrounded by people whom I love and care about and knowing that they felt the same way in return, is something really meaningful to me. In reality, there are so many types of friends in ones life. Do you feel the same way sometimes? 


1. There are friends yang kita tahu instantly, we clicked. We feel so calm inside and rasa sangat dekat. Sometimes, even though baru kenal, tapi rasa macam bertahun kenal. Even though dah betahun kenal, tp mak ai, setiap kali jumpa, cerita tak pernah tak berjela jela. The fact that we can share almost everything and tak rasa di-judge at all. Friendship mcm ni is based on tahap keikhlasan and ketulusan seseorang tu. Friendship like this yang kita nak kekalkan sampai kita tua and sampai bila bila.


2. There are friends yang kita rasa, kita kene control and tapis before we act or say anything. Situation macam ni biasenye we are left with no choice. Certain situation or certain places we are in yang menyebabkan kite harus berkawan no matter what. These are people who sometimes can be judgmental without them realizing it. But we love being around them, just feeling ni tak dapat dielakkan and sometimes rasa macam bukan diri sendiri. This can be frustrating jgk kadang.


3. There are friends who change along the way as we grow. Different environment causing kita untuk matang dan membesar dengan cara yang berlainan. Way of thinking. When this happen, we just need to respect each other's opinion and kalau dah tak boleh bawak, we shall continue hidup dengan cara masing2. After all, takde dasar paksaan dalam berkawan kan.


4. There are friends yang kita boleh sekadar berkawan. Bak kate orang, berkawan biar seribu, berkasih biar satu. Ke tak kena? hehe. There are so many different types of people in the world. Jangan sesekali expect semua orang suka kita or kita harus suka semua orang. C'mon la. Be rasional. Tp all we need to do, is respect. 


5. There are friends who are only close to you for benefits. Ini sangat tak dapat diterima. We can be nice to people but everything has it limits. Sekali dua takpa lagi, kadang-kadang bila kita sendiri dapat rasa and sampai orang lain pun boleh perasan, pedih juga hati kadang kadang kan. Friends like this, I'm not sure we should call them friends, but as far as I'm concern, all we can do is stay away. In friendship or any kind of relationships, we should always believe in 'Give and Take'. Bukan dari segi harta karun je, but also our heart. Taking advantages on people is one value that you wouldn't want in your character.


Who am I to judge other people kan. Tapi I'm a friend to my friends too and I always hope to be the best friend they ever had. When I'm friends with someone, I'll be as honest and truthful as possible to maintain the love in our friendship. If I don't feel comfortable being friends with a person or sense something is not right, I rather not say anything and stay away. This is just something that I thought that I could share based on my own experience and from others too. 


I am thankful for all the best of friends I have which I love very much. Enough I said. I glade to have YOU, You, yOu, yoU, and you in my life dear <3

Akak Sengal!

Tudia, gigi hamster hahah~

Dia ni dulu my lil' akak angkat, and now kami xnak adik akak angkat semua ni mengarut. kami nak jadi sekata dan setara. From now on we 'll be bestfriend forever. Budak paling sengal, and senior paling me menyampah sebab everytime kalau jumpa dia akan cakap "hey, mar hingus keluar la.." selekeh nak mati la this akak. despite kesengalan dia, ada jugak sifat caring. She's really take care of me sebab dia ni tak ada adik no wonder la kalau dia memang kat sekolah dulu treat me so childish. Special moment bila eating time, people gonna see us eating, sebab kami makan macam hamster, sorang kemam makanan tepi mulut, another one makan guna gigi depan. OK that's funny enough bila ingat balik..ahaks ahaks!

Before this dia amik civil like I does, lepas SPM tup tup now dia dah jadi english teacher for secondary student?! Gila kau tak terkejut, menyimpang jauh. Anyway akak, Please be a good teacher ok, behave yourself, jangan selekeh-selekeh dengan student, nanti student lari.  

so selekeh la kak mier nie..teghuk ah! ekekeke

30 Things That I Love

1. I love when you talk with the passion of honesty. You don't SAY things, but you DO things. That is simply amazing.
2. I love when I'm keep telling you to never give up on what you want to do. 
3. I love how you make funny things, even that's wasn't funny at all..at least he's try the best to make me laugh.
4. I love the way he's put things just to prove a point that I'm doing something wrong cause I can be a very difficult person at times, but you know how to handle me.
5. I love how you treat your parents, your siblings, your families..so then I know how you could treat my side like you does.
6. I love when you get so serious when it comes to discussing politics. I see passion inside that mysterious eyes. HAHA
7. I love when you get so serious when it comes to talking about life, about the future that we gonna make.. it's so fantastical.
8. I love the fact that you talk a lot. Too much sometimes! Hehe tp that attracts me to you at the first place actually.
9. I love the way you take attention at me every time when we are having a conversation.
10. I love to see how gelabahnya dia, when something happen to me. Hehehehehe.
11. I love when you sibuk sangat nak suruh me ulang balik what have you said before..Hee.
12. I love the fact that both of us appreciate good thing and think positive as a reward and satisfying in a  way.
13. I love seeing you playing with your cats.
14. I love you so much when you once said you couldn't wait to be my Imam one day.
15. I love you when you tell me that you love me.
16. I love to make you stay positive when you are feeling down for having a sweaty hands. selalu emotional until can't think then frust alone Hehe. Pecah rahsia?
17. I love you for being the most honest commentator when it comes to my decision, but biasanya saya betul, kalau takpun argue until dawn. lepas tu baik balik kan?
18. I love how the way you think about me even, sesibuk mana pun you still gonna ask me "dah makan ke belum?" takut sangat orang tak makan haih~
19. I love how sweet you can be. You just know what to do, what to say, what to respond.
20. I love when you're being jealous for the weirdest reason, and feeling sorry about it, but still can't help it. So cute
21. I love the way we on the phone, cakap sangat rancak, then senyap, masing-masing awkward haha feels like it's first time we have a conversation!
22. You are a man filled with 1001 surprises. There's always something new from you every day.
23. I love the fact that when I'm with you. Things just happen and flows.
24. I love when you make that eagle face bila I'm ruin your plan, then paksa-paksa suruh cari plan lain, kalau tak habis la, sebab I'm the one who brought up that idea up side down.....
25. I love the fact that you can loosen me up, be myself, and not be in controlled as I used to.
26. I love how simple you are.
27. I love how you try to make some beautiful poems, nak cuba la kononnya HAHA! how adorable you are!
28. I love the fact that you can simply answer your test, padahal cakap tak belajar dengan expression yang sangat yakin tu And I can't. Yes, please be my lifetime teacher!
29. I love which back in time you wake me up for subuh "Hey, bangun, subuh.." heee
30. I forgot to say that I love how good looking you are, and how you treat me even though I'm so imperfect and make a lot of mistake sana sini.

There are thousands more reasons that had made me love you,

and I'll never stop,

I'll love you even more,

May the thought that we are destined for each other,

remains.

With Allah's willing.

Aamin.